Merry CHristmas!
^_^

DB has got this song on repeat in my head...
It's been playing over and over again...


True
by Ryan Cabrera


I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

* * *


More on Vegas later, WITH pictures. (I hope.)
Loser, I mentioned Vegas. Suckerr.

starmienite: hi ramichaell
starmienite: do you know who i am?
starmienite: this is E.T.
starmienite: i phone home
Ra: HI
Ra: stupid

Ra calls...
"You are NOT, E.T." and hangs up. (yah, we miss you, you little punkass.)



Kelly says, "Tell him he's coming home because he misses me."
And she hats me because i'm a stupid griL.

Damon is th3 W1nnAR and I is the L0s3R!!
(cause you had MAC-DON-NALD for lunch...and YES...or else I'm going to play MJ on your boobies again and I'm sure Sara would be more than happy to give me a hand with that...suckerr)

Oh yeaa...

GOOD LUCK ON FINALS!
(and/or PAPERS...*ahem* Sara)

I need to stuudy. No more blog readin'.
Promise. (Probably cause I already finished reading eceryone's blog...Heee)


DB, do you still have that coupon for the sports store? I need to buy some stuff to walk in a winter wonderland with.
(Do you have to work this Saturday?)

Being FOBs & taking sticker pics!! 

Hot Pot!! 


MJ night!! =D 

^^ Sorries...was playing around with the new camara, so my hands shook when I was taking this picture...^^

Thanksgiving Weekend.

Productivity: None.
Fun: Too much! :D


My "To Do" List for the weekend was quite long (which explains this extremely LONG ass post)...
CHDV 494 Final (Monday)
English Peer Review Final Paper
CHDV 340 Presentation
Work


It all started pretty hectic on Wednesday.

Work, school, and then back to work. By the time I got out of class, everyone at the office was gone. Just me and Helen. No boss. No work. So relaxing. We stayed at the office till about 4:30. I went to my grandma's to pick up Shelby and played with Paige and Evan. Had dinner with Aunty and Stuart.

8 o' clock. Phone rings. Damon says dinner at Sara's apt to discuss trip details. Yay! I rush on home. Jason picks me up and we head to Albertson's to buy more food. Market was frickin' PACKED. You could imagine, day before Thanksgiving. O_O

Arrive at Sara's apt in record time. Damon and Sara had dinner all ready. The chicken was really good, Sar! And seriously, I WAS full. I had TWO dinners. We dicussed trip stuff. (I'm getting kinda excited, guys!) Afterwards, Jason and I did the dishes and managed to get Sara's Hello Kitty collectors item plate stuck in BB's huge ass bowl. It took 2 hours, a couple phone calls home, and Google to get that plate out without breaking it. O_O Yes, yes. So talented of us.

Thursday - Thanksgiving!!!
Dim sum early in the Morning with mom's side of the family. I (*edit* Debby and I)put up the Christmas tree, while my dad and Shelby put up the Christmas lights. (And it is NOT TOO EARLY!) By dinner time, I was all ready for some deep-fried Turkey. We headed over to Pasadena. That dinner was GOOOOOD. Even better, dessert. Costco's Chocolate Lovers Cake. O_O SO GOOOOD

Friday -
After-Thanksgiving shopping! Kinda. I was too tired from all the festivities so I missed all the good sales. But I did manage to get a digital camara. Finally! Canon PowerShot SD200, baby! Extra large LCD screen for the Papa cause he can't seeeeee.

At night, dinner at Macaroni Grill with Sara, Damon, & Jason. Sara mentioned she wanted to learn how to play MJ, so we decided, why not? My parents were having a mini party at my house, but thank goodness, the majority of the people already left by the time we got to my house. Poor guys, I hope my parents and their friends didn't scare you guys when they surrounded us. O_O

My mom was a bit aggressive with Sara and Jason, who were just learning how to play. She gets a little bit TOO involved. Heeeeeee. They both did pretty darn well for beginners. We played till 2:30. They're all hooked. Suckerrs. :D


Saturday:
Sara and I originally planned for breakfast together, but since we stayed up to play MJ, we didn't wake up till 11:30. We beat the guys in waking up late. We decided to go to lunch instead. We haven't done that in a while. We headed over to Damon's house to give LYnette her b-day gift. :D We dropped Sara off at home so she can go to USC game, so the 3 of us headed over to the dealerships to find a new car for Jason. The AUdi guy was frickin' crazy. O_O He turned really fast on those freeway on-ramps and the car skidded in the back. FUN! Dangerous, but fun.
After all the excitement, both from the Audi guy and the talkin' Jason gave to the BMW sales manager about our salesguys, we picked Sara up and headed over to NYC Rest. for some grub. Ha. We looked stupid, cause we couldn't read the menu in Chinese. We managed. :D Us, gamba-holics, decided to head over to Jason's house and played MJ. AGAIN. Bacahead won on all CHickenhands. Sar and I pissed, cause we had frickin' pretty hands.


Sunday:
Church. Lunch with Grandma afterwards. Dropped her off at her apartment and to pick up my parents car. Jason calls about hot pot stuff. I see Shelby getting out of the car. Don't know why, but assume he's helping my mom carry stuff, so I sit and wait. I check my phone and realize I've been on the phone with Jason for the past 25 minutes. How long does it take to carry stuff to the car? I hang up and call Shelby.

Me: Where the hell are you?
Shelby: With mom. Where are YOU?
Me: Still at the apartment waiting for YOU!
Shelby: Oh, I left.

No duh, Sherlock! So I was sitting out there like an idiot. Psh. Go home, attempt to finish off "To Do List". Sar picked me up at 5:15 to go to the market to get some GC. (SOrry about the cash thing. We go again this weekend. :D) Head over to Jason's house for hot pot. Good crap to eat, man. Afterwards, more MJ! Stupid STupid Damon had to take all the cards I needed!! This means, I didn't win ANYTHING. NOT ONE.

Oh wells. There's next time, man. Just you wait. Heehee. I AM the W1nnAr!!

*edit* This weekend has been the BEST, ever! Quoting Sara...

"Having the BEST time with the BEST friends I could possibly ask for
Being extremely thankful for EVERYTHING this Thanksgiving :) "



The End. (Until next Weekend. Muhahaa)

Think Asians can tell Asians apart? HA!
It's actually harder than it looks. Heehee.

Try this, guys!!

^_^

FALLING DOWN
Bebo Norman

Angels on a subway
She's buried in a magazine
Stuck inside a replay
Of someone else's dream

Prophets made of paper
Don't tell her anything
She wants something just to save her
So she lifts her head and screams
She lifts her head and screams,

"I don't know You
But I love You anyway
I can't see You
But I hope You're here to stay
I don't know You
But I need You here with me
Cuz I'm falling down
I'm falling down."

Now angels on a runway
Looking for a big jet plane
To take her to a new day
She won't be back again
She won't be back again
And she says,

"You're on my side
You're just in time
I'm on my way
Don't know who You are
But I want You back again."

Sara..
this was the airplane guy.

HHAHA!! 

Like Sara said....THIS COULD BE US!!



At the top of the world... 

It's freezin. Still haven't had a chance to unpack my winter clothes yet. Must do.

Saturday:
Did homework ALLLL day, well, except when Alfie and DB came over. Had a reaaalllly looong break. They pick on me waaay too much. :D They were chasing me around the house trying to get a picture of me. (Reminds me of Kelly chasing me for a picture. I love hearing, "Damn it! She moved too fast!" Yes, Me...the speed demon. Muhaha!! 2 Fast, 2 Furious for y'alls!!) I also sang and danced my Korean "Three Bears" song for them, which for some weird reason, they totally cracked up at. I must say I have odd cousins. Cobras with a C fo life!!

After our little break together, we went our seperate ways. Alfred went off to play Stacks with his buddies, DB went off to watch The Grudge WITHOUT me (psh! Traitor.) and I went off with my "THREE friends", Sara Damon Jason. (Sara said, "I've been promoted to 3, instead of her being my only friend." How nice. THanks, DB.)

We went off to Fu Shings for dinner, which was A VERY NICE AND BEAUTIFUL RESTAURANT WITH GOOD FOOD AND GREAT SERVICE. FANK YOU SARA. :D Damon said the main thing that screamed this restaurant was not as authentic was the fact that the service was so good. The waiter thanked us everytime and told us our next dish will be coming shortly. We had a nice waiter. :D After din din, we brought our smelly food into Jason's "new" car. The smell of leather and chinese food don't mix very well, as we soon learned. We seriously thought someone farted. Ack. We drove down to Old Town for some dessert. It was a toss-up between restaurant dessert or Coldstones. We went up and all around to Islands, P.F. Changs (the Great Wall of Chocolate cracked me up), Yardhouse, and this Seafood restaurant to see their collection of desserts, but ended up heading to Coldstones for some ice-cream. We sat outside and just "chilled". Literally. It was freezin.

I don't know what was different about this time. I was with the same people. We did the same thing we always do. I mean, I always have fun when we go out, but this time, I had a reallly really good time. Was thinking "Dammn, now I have to go home" when we pulled up to my driveway.

(Maybe my hormones are outta whack...I'm being overly-emotional and sentimental? *shrugs* HeeHee. Maybe it's the Holidays!)
Anywhoots, gahm-sa-mi-dad Sallie (or was it Sarrie?) & Jamon. :D


Sunday:
Church as usual, but got there 15 minutes late and my favorite part, singing Worship songs, was over. DB came over beforehand to tell me about The Grudge. She was scared. Umm...stirs my curiousity even more. >:D But DB, you must keep your promise and watch it again with me. The Grudge and NOT The Incredibles. NOT THE INCREDIBLES. (Maybe I'll watch that with my 3 friends, but WE ARE WATCHING THE GRUDGE.)

After church, I went to go pick up Kirsten to go to a b-day party. Helen couldn't make it. What a bitch. Heehee. Yes, ELLENNN. You the bitch. So now I'm home. Maybe I should get my winter clothes out....mmmm...maybe later.

So this this guy I didn't know IMs me on Yahoo! Messenger named Sag. Apparently, he's from a guy, 22 years old, he's Swedish from Sweden....if he's Swedish, then I'm a...

22 year old Korean girl (was prepared to bust out my KOrean) who resides in Australia, majoring in psychology at her university. She likes to take pictures of places she likes to go, especially Sweden.

After I told him I was from Korea...
SAG: ok.it is a industrial country and has beautiful girls ,right/
SAG: very lovely and very attractive. and you are the most beautiful of them, right/how is your body

Hahaha. My body is phat. ;D


My partner in crime (aka The Boy Who Gronks) tells me to say my breast size is 42D.
Muhahaa. But then my Ego tells me to stop being mean and I just end the conversation with...

Dude, you're really creeping me out.
Bye.


(Eh, just kidding. But I COULD HAVE. I hope SAG had fun too.)

:*) cLick cLicK


I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to
I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you, it will be so right
If you could see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
I be yours, you be mine
Oh, what will I do?



:*)

The many joys of living at home. >:O
I can't talk to DB on my break from studying. I can't take take Paige & Evan trick-or-treating because I have a mid-term tomorrow.


MY tuition. MY money. MY grades. MY decision.
(This is why I refuse to borrow a single dime from my parents. That gives them the power to tell me what to do and I won't have it.)

Hmm...try this out. :D


My Results:

You are a RSIG--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a People-Pleaser.

Oh, RSIG! You are the most complicated and dynamic of any type. You are brilliant, tender, romantic and a joy to be with. You're the favorite of many of your friends. It's just not a party until you get there. You are bursting with feeling and sentiment and insight but you very rarely express it -- it's not how you want to present yourself to the world. Although you are always studying your non-romantic relationships -- you turn a blind eye to romantic relationships.

You're highly adaptable, and you conform to your circumstances (maybe you're a youngest child?). You would probably be content with almost anyone, and almost anyone would be blissfully happy to have you. But just because you're content doesn't mean you're happy. Don't settle!

You'd rather ignore your problems than rock the boat by creating conflict. Please understand that in the long run ignoring conflict will make you unhappy and your partner exhausted. Try picking a fight just to see how it goes. You'll find out that solving problems is so satisfying for you that it makes conflict worth it.

Your sex life could be fantastic if you could stop worrying about everything so much (did I wash my hands? how do I look? what do I need to do tomorrow?). You need a sweet, expressive lover who makes you feel at ease and never puts pressure on you. If you feel secure with your partner outside the bedroom, it will make all the difference.

You cry at movies. A lot.

Of the 143239 people who have taken this quiz, 5.7 % are this type.

* * *

I want to know what you guys got!

Song of the Moment.
Trance version.

I love the RAIN. I love Fall. I love the cold. I love Winter. I love wearing a scarf. Ain't it grand? :D

I'm rather excited about going to Knott's this weekend. I promise myself that I would go through the mazes with my eyes open O_O, unlike the other times where I just ran through with my eyes closed. Defeats the purpose. Haha.

Halloween will be trick or treating with Paige & Evan. :D Can't wait to see them in their costumes looking all cute and crap.


Now back to reality. Mid-term & Critical Bibliography due on Monday. Damn it. I envy you, Sara. :D

Claud, I looooost my $10.

But it was expected. These people actually play in ACTUAL POKER TOURNAMENTS.
First thing that went wrong....
I was the dealer first. As I was passing out the cards, I did it too slow.
Man with serious poker face: You have to deal again. I saw the cards.

O_O
Second thing went wrong...
Everyone: Check, check, check....check.
My turn.
Me: Fold.
Man with all the chips: You don't fold. You check.
Me (turning red): Uh...heee. Okay.

Third thing went wrong...
Me with pocket Aces.
Me: I raise you...30 cents. O_O


No more. Thank gooodness. :D
I learned A LOT that night. Thanks to Alfred and DB for teaching me.

Cobras with a C, for life.

So the cousins and I attempted to watch The Grudge last night. How disappointing was it to go there to find it SOLD OUT. I guess it must be a pretty good movie. :D

Alfred suggested we go shoot some pool and that's what we did. We went to Cue Ball. It was pretty packed there. We divided into 2 teams. DB and I on one team and Alfred and his friend on the other. Pool is kinda hard, but fun. I was told to "Hit the ball in the center." after I scratched several times. I'm lucky enough if I even hit the damn thing. And luck was with me!
I hit the ball. It went in. We won. (But only cause Alfred hit the 8 ball in right afterwards, but who's counting? ;D Heehee.) After a couple more hardcore pool games, we took his friend home and headed over to Lollicup for some late night boba. Made myself look stupid there. No sweat. That happens to me allll the time. heehee.

At Lollicup, Alfred let me drive his car home. Ehh...just kidding. His other car. At first they were saying, "Hollie, this IS a sports car. You CAN go faster." So I floored it and they started getting scared. Suckers. :D Alfred told me I could do a doughnut when we got on our street. Yah. Well, that didn't quite work out the way I wanted it to. I tried, but instead...I got a "Okay, now you just look stupid, driving in a circle at 20 miles per hour." I'm still not quite sure how you go about accomplishing a doughnut. Oh welps.

Tonight is the Poker Tournament at Alfred's friend's house. Hopefully, DB can make it tonight. I'm kind of nervous. I've never played with people other than my cousins. When you play with your cousins, it's all in good fun. But when you play with 16 other hardcore Poker people that AREN'T your cousins... O_O. I don't think they'd appreciate my amateur-ness.

Apparently, my poker face isn't very good (I have a feeling it looks more like I'm constipated, than a poker face.) Alfred kind of coached me on the ettiquette last night. Oh, so much to remember! But it's an experience. :D It's a $10 buy-in, so that's all I can lose. Goood.

I hope I don't drop the cards when I deal. o_O Or my hands don't shake. O_O Ai ya. Should be FUN! :D

WOW. I've beem staring forever at these pictures. O_O
This guy is so frickin' talented.


O_O 


WOW. 


duuude... 


Oohh.. 


WOW.

=D 

DB:

ARASO! I finally saw it! SO FUNNNNY!! I coudln't stop laughing.
DANGER!! When I saw it, I was like, "THAT'S where she gets it from!"

Watch out, Knott's Scary Farm goers of mine, you're gonna get a lot of DANGER!!
:p

Happy B-Day, Kell! :D

MUhahahaha...hAAAA...W1nnAr this time only.

W1nnAr: you're in the latest issue of glamor
starmienite: i am?
W1nnAr: glamour
W1nnAr: hahahha
starmienite: whaa!!
W1nnAr: you have a twin!
starmienite: whooo?
W1nnAr: her name is Sarah O'rourke


She's on page 100. If she's ugly, I'm gonna walk over there and kick your ass.
If she's not, then you can keep the title "W1nnAr". For today.

I seriously hate her class. ENGLISH frickin' 102. I feel so utterly lost and stupid in that class. I've been "working" on this research paper of ours for the past couple of days, non-stop. I'm getting frustrated cause I don't even know where to start. It's due Monday and I have nothing. Absolutely NOTHING.

I'm gonna frickin' CRY. My legs are hot. Damn it. I'm putting my head down.

>:*(

I can say I walk a mile at least 5 times a week on the treadmill, but I am, undoubtedly, OUT OF SHAPE. Kirsten invited me and Helen to badminton with her and her friends on Saturday. I thought, "Hey, I'm not doing anything special. Homework can wait. How tough can Badminton be?" So we went.

We arrived at Almansor Park at around 6:30. The gym was pretty packed. Helen and I were very shy about playing in front of everyone. Everyone was shooting the birdie back and forth like bullets. I'm just worried whether or not I can even HIT the stupid thing. Helen and I, after sitting around for a while, decided to run on outside to "warm-up." Pressure from the pro's to play made us run. We walked around the park, ran after a verry cute looking Chinese fireman. (yes, RAN. That's how hot he was. I ran for him.) Helen gave him a 9.5, with 10 being FLAMIN' HOT, like Cheetos. On our way, we passed by the kiddy park. We decided to give the monkey bars and the swings a swing. Felt like a kid again. Me and Helen sat in the swings and had quite a long talk about what we were like as kids and what we did. It's moments like these, that you thank God for giving you friends like them.

(Edit by DB: It's moments like these, that you thank God for giving you someone other than Sara.) <-- What a baca.

We finally decided to head back before they started to worry. We felt brave enough to give it a shot after a court opened up. Apparently, badminton is not the same thing as tennis. But good news! I hit the birdie! I did miss a couple of times or the times I did hit it, it came flying at Kirsten was positioning in the front. :D Heeee. We worked up a sweat. After we got kicked out of the gym, we all headed over to Thai Orchid. Kirsten's friends were very cool to hang out with. We had a blast. The night couldn't end without me falling down as we were leaving the restaurant. And of course, the whole restaurant was closed by the time we left, so the waiters and waitresses were all in the front, cleaning up. I, literally, fell flat on my face in front of everyone. Apparently, my feet didn't see the extra step there and my legs were tired out from all that badminton and collasped. Everyone was trying to hold in the laughs as they asked, "Are you, heehee, okay? Heehee."

You would think that after all the times I've tripped, I would have done it more gracefully. But no. My legs were spread out in air and stayed that way till I hit the floor. Nicce move, Hollie. Thanks.

I am so SORE.
Who knew badminton night was so much fun? :D

Work today was really work. Hard labor, man. We had to move all our files to the other office due to the lack of space in our sardine can of an office. We had to load all the files to Kirsten's car. And of course, we couldn't use the elevator. So I being so smart, created the Slide System. I took a box, put a file in it, and pushed it down the stairs. Waiting at the bottom of the stairs is Helen, who would then take it out of the box and hand it over to Kirsten, who would put in her car. It worked the first couple of times till this one stupid file fell out (I'm stronger than I know. Muhahaha.) cause I pushed it too hard. Not only did the file come tumbling down the stairs to a screaming Helen who thought the file was going to hit her. The box broke too. So the remaining files, we had to walk them up and down the stairs.

We got through that ordeal. Next ordeal was bringing the files up to the other office, which DOESN'T have a frickin' elevator. So we again, went up and down the stairs. My legs were shaking and wobbling by the end. It was a very tiring day.

The rest of the day went by pretty fast. Espiecially since Kirsten and I stole Helen's 350Z to run errands!! Man, that car, COOOOL. Acceleration, cool. Mufflers, cooool. Functions, coool. Power, coool. Damon wanted to buy the car from her for $1. I do too.

After our little illegal adventure, the 3 of us headed down to Old Town. Kirsten's never been to Buca's before, so I decided to take her there for her birthday. Helen treated all of us to drinks at the bar. I, of course, got a Midori Sour. (The one at D&B's was better.) Helen had a taste of mine. She LOVED IT. Kirsten couldn't finish her White Cosmo, so of course, thinking I'm an alchy, made me finish it. (And I was driving that night, no less!) I put aside my Midori to drink that. I asked Helen if she wanted a sip of it, since she was eyeing it. She said, "Sure!" I was talking to Kirsten about a Korean drama called "Full House" and the next thing we hear is Helen sucking up the last of the Midori. I looked at the cup. "Helen! I said a SIP! Not the whole thing!" She just smiled and said "Heeee. It was good." Kirsten bought me another, which I shared with Helen cause I'm such a good friend. ;D haha. I drank a little bit and just gave her the rest. She is so gung-ho about Midori Sours. ;D

We walked around Old Town a bit, hitting up Urban Outfitters and of course, Barnes and Nobles. :D I love work.


Right now...chatting with the other Midori lover...

HoneyDew : i need some more of midori sour
hchung1224: hahahahaha
hchung1224: john's gonna come back from Vietnam to a drunk girlfriend
hchung1224: and ask what I did with the sober one
HoneyDew : can you make me some?
HoneyDew : i m willing to be your lab mouse
HoneyDew :


Scale ingredients to servings
1 oz Midori Melon Liqueur
1 oz Whisky Sour Mix
2 oz Sprite
2 Cherries





Fill a highball glass with ice. Add the midori, sour mix and sprite, give a quick stir, and add cherries.Serve in:


* * *

Muhaha. She's addicted.

I just found out my Music 400 teacher, Lu (She says it's Lu, for Luscious.) was the detention teacher in Freaky Friday. My brother thought she was a man.






P.S. Gingerbread Man, we're here for you...
(I promise I'll hold off on the gumdrop buttons till later.)

My dad came home with pictures from their trip to Thailand. As I sat there looking through the pictures, I came across this one...


DAD: This is the man I like! 


My dad can be soooo weird sometimes. ;D

DB gave me a new e-mail address...very nice, aye?
holliesucksbigballsandkahunas@hollileisavagina.com


Much appreciated, cuz. ;D

So much to write...I think I'll start with Friday.

Friday
Pretty normal day, as usual. Work was good. Afterwards, met up with Sara, Damon, and Jason for some b-day celebration at CPK down in Old Town. Jason bought Sara a martini? and she turned RED. She gave me a sip or two. Not bad. Not bad at all.
Haha. I ordered the Santa Fe chicken pizza. Now THAT was good. Everyone pretty much agreed, huh? ;D We had plenty of laughs during dinner. What were we laughing at? Jason's laugh. Someone said it sounded like a piano scale. Hahaha HA hahaha. With Sara drunk, it only made things more entertaining. I'm sure the CPK waiters thought we were a group of doofus(es?) laughing at absolutely nothing. :D We needed to burn off those calories.

After dinner, we headed on home. Damon didn't think Sara and I could drive her car home, so he drove it to my house. We all hung out at my house (cause no parents! Woot Woot!) until it got kinda late. So, the guys left. Sara stayed over for the night. We busted out the inflattable bed that blows up by itself. Sara turned on the machine and the bed start to inflate. Slooooowly. She stopped the machine and I took over. We look back at the bed and it was flat! What the hell! We couldn't figure it out, till Sara the genius, figured out that we didn't close the lid to where the air is released when we want to deflate it. :D Finally, we got the bed blown up. Sara stayed up with me to watch Friday's episode of Stairway to Heaven. (thanks!!) By the end, both of us were so tired, we just fell asleep. No looong talks like before. Maybe next time Sara!

My brother was rather shocked in the morning to see 2 bodies laying in the living room. (He didn't know Sara slept over.) We all washed up by 10:30 am and got McDonald's before it stops serving breakfast at 11. We really gotta do that again. :D


Saturday
Today was the day of Sara's surprise party. (Thanks to everyone for showing up!) Things got off on a rocky start. We left Damon's house around 5:15. Jason called and said no one was there yet. It was already 5:30, by that time. Basically, we needed to slow down. That was the best time to be bilingual. I told Damon in Chinese to slow down. Sara has been hanging around us, Chinese people, way too much cause she, somehow, figured it out! O_O Got another call 15 minutes later that 4 people out of 25 were there. So now, I pretended I had to pee real bad. We got dropped off at Babies R' Us to "go". Hung around the Spectrum until we got an A-Okay to start heading over there.

SURPRISE!! Yea, she was. Right Sara? ;D BJ's was good. She got a couple of drinks. She opened her gifts, except for some "lingerie" she refused to show everyone. We decapitated Hello Kitty and ate her, along with some Bazooka. Damn, that was good. Afterwards, we headed on over to D&B's (seriously. Forget the bonfire. We're doing D&B's!). Now THAT place is fun. Everyone decided to hit the games, while Ape, Kelly, Steph, and I decided to hit The Bar. Ape took me up there to get some drinks. My first time. Very exciting. Of course, got our ID checked. :D...from then on, we made many more trips back to to Matt, our bartender.

We had...(in order of appearance to my best ability)
1.) Midori Sour (THE BEST! Kelly, you taste good!)
2.) Monster's Ball
3.) B-52
4.) Lemon Drop (so this is the part where everything got a bit fuzzy,so bear with me)
5.) Scooby Snacks
6.) Vodka/Coffee thingy that Ape said was good
7.) Sexy Crocodile (never EVEr get this. so NASTY tasting.)

I hope that's everything. One more? I really can't remember. Ape is the BEST! I would not have had as much fun if she weren't there. (Imagine if Ra was there!) Sara was even further away than I was! She made everyone laugh. I didn't really do anything crazy that crazy. I hit on Lynette and bought her a Roy Rogers. Ape told me I had to hit on a guy while I was there, so I did. I hit Jason. Several times. Then Kelly hit Jason (she was sober). Poor guy. Gettin' beat up by a couple of girls. I, by the way, also won the Uncomfortable Game. The first one to beat Kelly! *cheers* I harassed Irvsjournal.com to take a quarter from me, so he can finish off his arcade game. Ummm...nothing else. That's it. No more. It was all good.

Thank you to Steph, Lynette, Claudia,& Kelly for taking care of me while I was away. I hope I was nice to you guys. After everyone started to leave, we decided to leave also. We sat outside for a bit, while Sara sobered up. It still took us a while to get ourselves TO the car, with Sara kissing everyone goodbye. (I really don't remember that. I was told this the next day.) Thank you to Jason for taking me home. He was nice enough to tell my brother that he was willing to sell my drunken stories of that night to him. Just in case he ever needed it. Boys. *eyes are a-rollin'* And that concludes my Saturday.

*whew* Am finally done! :D Damon ALREADY has discriminating photos. I'm sure Kelly didn't miss out.

Gee golly whiz. O_O Can't wait.
[Kirsten (after seeing the pictures): Oh, so that's how you get Hollie to take pictures. You get her drunk!... Er, no people. Don't work like that! ;D)

Got an email from my Dad!
This is part of their adventures in Thailand...

...We went jet ski and
banana boat ride and did some shopping. we also went to see a live girl
singing and dancing show. They were very beautiful and nice body figure. At
the end we took a picture of one of the dancing girl. And Guess What? iT
TURN out that all of them are men. We are leaving from paraya to bangkok
today. We talik about our adventure when we gets home.
Love Dad And mom.


Hahaha...I love the end. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SARA!

ha ha. I just came across a patient named "Wong, Ho Ho".
Suckerr.

I am so lame. Yesterday I had dinner with my Grandma at my Aunty's house. By the time I came back from picking up dinner, it was already 15 minutes into my Stairway to Heaven. O_O So I ran to the TV, plopped myself down, and watched sexy Oppa look for Jing Shu, who, by the way, is dying of cancer. Five minutes later, Paige finishes her bath, walks over to me and says, "Jeje, I want to watch Wiggles. I was thinking, "Frick Fricky Friccck." I asked her, "Paige, can you give Jeje 10 minutes? Pleaaaase?"

Paige: But I want to watch Wiggles!
Me: Come on Paige. Give me just 10 minutes.
Paige: Wiggles!
Me: 10 minutes!

And that is why I am so lame. I'm standing there arguing with a 3 year old for the TV.

Me: Oh Paige! Look! Airplanes!
Paige: Where?! I want to see airplanes. I can't see it, Jeje.
Me: -in head- Score!!!!

Teehee. She watched Stairway with me till it ended. Every once in a while, I hear, "Jeje, why is she crying?" I think we bonded.

:D


P.S. I did let her watch Wiggles afterwards!

My parents are, as of this moment, in the land where Rachel lives. Thailand! They decided to take a quick trip for a week over there on a tour. I took an hour off to drive them to take the airport shuttle yesterday.

And sooo, Shelby and I have the whole house to ourselves! You would think I would enjoy it, but it's actually pretty quiet. No nagging whatsoever. It's times like this morning I had to wake up at 6:45 in the frickin' morning to take Shelby to zero period that I miss my parents.

It's expected that I have a party since my parents aren't home. But no such luck since this weekend is already all packed. ('Rents coming home this Sunday.)


More laters. :D

Hollie(5:48:54 PM): your boyfriend suucks
Hollie (5:48:55 PM): :-P
Sara (5:49:27 PM): thanks
Hollie(5:49:55 PM): you're welcome

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
JESUS COMMANDS MY DESTINY
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or CALLS ME HOME
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

Thanks DB for setting up my comments.

I want to sleep. Nothing will worry me. I just sleep. That means I can go Home.
That'd be nice.

LaunchCast is really convienant! It's like the radio, minus the commericals. :D I heard "The Trouble With Love is" by Kelly Clarkson today. Kirsten and I agree. Good song, good song.

* * *

The Trouble With Love
Kelly Clarkson

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It’ll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love


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^_^

Office Webcam
We really should be working. We're entitled to a lot of break time. Went a bit webcam crazy at the office. Heeeee. :D
Well, this is our office.


Clockwise: Helen, Rachel, I don't know her.  


Our P.A. (Physician Assistant), trying to block off our "Boss Is Coming" look-out point. ^_^ 



We really should be working.  


Jaden, oh so photogenic. 

THE CONTAINER STORE is the best store EVER!! Sara took me to the one that just opened in Pasadena. So...many...containers...for...everything. I was such a genius. I was planning on using the gift certificate that Kell had given me 3 years back. What did I do? I was so excited about going, I forgot the GC at home. PHooey! I already found what I want, Kel! You're getting me those rolling, 3 drawer, container carts to put in my closet. Thanks Kel!! ;D Must head back over there sometime.

After visiting the Best Store ever, Sara, Damon, Serena (bathroom story to follow), Caroline, and I met up with Jason at Macaroni Grill for some stuffed mushrooms that he says is The Best. As we waited to be seated, Serena and I paid a visit to the restroom (In this restroom, you can learn how to speak Italian as you pee. How time-efficient.) Anyways, when I was done, I wasn't sure if she already left yet, so I said, "Karen? Are you there?" No answer. "Karen? Ummm...Karen? Karen?" No answer again. I assumed she left. When I got to our table, she wasn't there. I heard Damon say the name "Serena." I thought, "Oh frick. That's why she didn't answer me. I was calling the wrong name!" Once again, I am such a geNU-IS. ;D

I decided to create my own pasta. Bowtie pasta...tomato alfredo sauce...mushrooms...sun-dried tomatos...spinach (I need iron.) So GOOD! I guess my "diet" has gone out the window. Again. Shucks.

Dinner was good. Dessert was good. Stole Jason's Mercedes (His is a real one, unlike my old Mercedes. ;D). Went for a joyride with Sara around the parking lot. Hot chicks, comin' through. Come on people. Move it or lose it. :D Was fun, but think the car is too high tech for us. We couldn't even find how to unlock the doors. Went back to Sara's apt, hung out a bit, and saw what happens when you mix CBB w/ ants. O_O We left Sara's apartment around 2 in the morning. I was again, such a geNU-IS. I decided to give Damon and Sara some time aloneto say their good-nights and walked off to push the button to cross the street. Two DRUNK white college guys sitting at the bus stop and this was our conversation:

Dude: Hey.
Me: -in head- Oh frick-a-zoids. Stay calm. Just keep walking.
Uh, hi.
Dude: How are you?
Me: -in head- Oh frick. Damoon. Hurrry!
Fine.
Dude: *I have no idea what he was mumbling*
Me: -silence-
Dude: Amanda, can I f*ck you!!!


I tried positioning myself behind the light pole, hoping that they were drunk enough to think I just magically disappeared. It worked. I heard a Hello? and that was the end of it. I think they were so drunk they couldn't see my tummy and ass sticking out the pole. >:D All this fun college stuff I never got to try. Haha.

Damon was done by this time. We hopped in his car and headed on home. Thanks for the ride, Pirate Man!


Got home fairly fast. When I turned on the lights, I found this on my desk from DB.


A nice little note to come home to.  

HOw nice. :D AND JUST BECAUSE YOU FIND ONE SOCK ON MY DESK DOES NOT MEAN IT'S YOURS CAUSE YOU HAVE ONE SOCK MISSING FROM YOUR LAUNDRY. :D That one sock's partner is in my sock drawer, all lonely now. It's imperative that I steal it back from you because that lands me an extra day not to do my laundry! (That's the primary reason I ever do my laundry. Either I run out of chonies or I run out of socks.)

Therefore, the tables have turned and DB, YOU'RE THE SOCK THIEF NOW! Muhahaha. >:D

Bamon! I did it!! :D Yes!!

Anywhoots, it's Helen's birthday this Sunday. We decided to take her out to CPK at Santa Anita after work today. She wanted to take a pic at one of those sketch booth things. Reaally cool. :D Heehee!


Me & Helen @ the SketchBot Booth! 

We all walked around the mall. Ponchos are the "It" thing at Macy's or something. There were so many! I look short and stubby in them. Heehee. Not my thing. ;D Afterwards, we went our seperate ways and here I am. :D

MOre lates!!

I was re-reading my last post.
I sounded like Kelly.
*High Five* Pij!

Where have my damn comments gone? No esta aqui. I'm gonna fix it right now.

This past weekend was fun-filled. Visit Bamon's blog and there'll be a nice little recap. Harold and Kumar was okay. Some parts we (Sara and I) didn't really get. Maybe we're not perverted enough. Princess Diaries was really cute. I loved her coronation dress! ;D Am going to get the soundtrack and DVD when it comes out. :D

Oh, the boss lady is coming. Eee!!

So the Gingerbread Man told me that this song reminds him of me...
Where's that cup of milk, eh? One leg at a time...Run Run, as fast as you can..

* * *

Holding Out For A Hero
Bonnie Tyler

Where have all the good men gone and where are all the gods?
Where's the streetwise Hercules to fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero till the end of the night
he's gotta be strong and he's gotta be fast
and he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero till the morning light
He's gotta be sure and he's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Larger than life

Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasies
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a Superman to sweep me off my feet

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero till the end of the night
he's gotta be strong and he's gotta be fast
and he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero till the morning light
He's gotta be sure and he's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Larger than life

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning strikes the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
and the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach like a fire in my blood

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero till the end of the night
he's gotta be strong and he's gotta be fast
and he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero till the morning light
He's gotta be sure and he's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Larger than life

* * *


Just cause I'm Xena, Warrior Princess,
I'm gonna get those gum drop buttons...>:P

Recap of Everything!

Catalina:
We had the BEST time! Lotsa laughs and lotsa pictures!


We didn't end up going on the glass-bottom boat due to lack of time. We did all the fun stuff though! Golf-carting, kayaking, and snorkeling!!


- To Be COntinued _

Okay...if you couldn't tell, I still have not fixed that stupid banner thing ^up^ there and still haven't fixed the comments page. :D

Like I say, procrastination always gets the best of me.


Tomorrow is the trip to Catalina. People attending such a fun event are Rach (of course), Bal, Helen, John, Kirsten, and me! We're, literally, waking up at the crack of dawn to get our asses out to the Long Beach dock at frickin 8 in the morning. O_O We've planned a day of fun! Kayaking, snorkeling, glass-bottom boat, and golf-carting (?)(You ride the golf cart up around the hills in Catalina to all the scenic points. *shrugs* Sounds good to me!)

After all this...we're heading to Santa Ana to this Vietnamese restaurant where they have these fried fish things that you wrap with rice paper, I think. It's suppose to be really really really good, as Kirsten and Helen claim it to be.

Am so excited. Exclamation point. Exclamation point.
^_^

Note to Me: Fix banner thingy ^up^ there. Looks horrible. Oh, and comments too.
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This week, so far, has been REAALLLY good. *smiles*
^_^ Ra and Damon's favorite Car Hoe are coming back! Yes!

As for next week, I'm prepared for it to suck like hell. DB is leaving me. (Jackass, you're leaving on frickin' Sunday, when I'm back from Catalina. No matter what.) She's growing up, moving out and into an apartment down (or is it up? Am so horrible at Geography.) to Fullerton. It is going to be so QUIET around here. Damn.

Rach has booked her plane ticket for next Friday. She will be moving back to Thailand. :*(
It still hasn't hit me yet, that she's leaving....that she won't be there to say, "Sollie Hollie" when she's really trying to say "Sorry Hollie." She won't be there to teach me Thai. She won't be there for us to play with (i.e. Bonfire camp song). We won't get to laugh when she says "Hollie Potter" instead of Harry Potter. She won't be there to tell Helen to stop picking on me. Okay, enough.

We'll miss you, P' Yok!!
:(

Sara will be home soon. Damon's counter is rather helpful. Only 11 more days left. :D Yay!

Over the weekend, our poor dinky car was hit, while it was parked in the parking lot of Big Lots! The man was nice enough to have the Big Lots! employee intercom us. Marco's said our car would need some doctoring in the garage for about 30 days. Thus, I was pleasantly chauferred for the past couple of days. Thanks to some enlightenment provided by CheeseMan, we are now renting a car. (Too bad no BMWs, Mercedes, etc etc. to rent :D) A car that runs is fine by me!!

Yesterday was registration day for classes. It was a bitch (a different kind from Helen ;D). Half the classes I wanted to take are full. The other two, I have to take off from work and get my ass over there to see why I can't register. I'm worried that I won't be able to handle 5 classes this quarter. O_O Ahhh.

I will be fine. I'm determined to be fine. Even if I'm not, I'm still gonna say I am. ^_^


Joke:
What did the sushi say to the bee?
(Damon, shhhhhhhhhhh.:X)

"I Wish For You"
- Jessica Andrews


Time goes by so fast, and days they seem to dance
Into the distance till they're gone
If I had a map, to lead you down life's path
I'd give it to you, But I don't
So go on

Cry hard, Laugh Loud
Be humble, Stand Proud
And don't be afraid of your fears
Let love break your heart
Just be who you are
All of this
All that there is
I wish for you

You can never know which way your world will turn
How the stars are gonna fall
Salty tears they burn
There are lessons you will learn
But you'll be stronger for it all
Oh, yes you will

Cry hard, Laugh Loud
Be humble, Stand Proud
And don't be afraid of your fears
Let love break your heart
Just be who you are
All of this
All that there is
I wish for you

Cry hard, Laugh Loud
Be humble, Stand Proud
Hold onto your faith with all your heart
Be careful, Be brave
Be still, but don't stay
In any one place for too long
Remember God's grace
Give more than you take
All of this
All that there is
I wish for you

In response to my "BITCH" post....from Helen.
(Angela use to take care of our referral stuff.)

Helen: Hello, APO IPA. How may I help you?
Person: Hiiiii. How are yoooou? (in a rather low, sexy voice)
Helen: I'm good. And you?
Person: Do you know who this is?
Helen: Bitttccccchhhhhhh.
Person: Huh?
Helen: Uh....ummm.... Angela?
Person: Yess. I thought you forgot.
Helen: Sorrrry, I thought you were Hollie.


From Helen..."We have to stop doing this. We're gonna get in trouble." [laughing]
Yes, I think we should. We should limit it to private calls only. :D

Talk about mood change on my part.


This person who I thought was a nice person, proved over this weekend that he might not be. =(

The more I think about it, the more it upsets me. I hope I'm wrong.
I need do some smile therapy. ExCUSE me.

Frick. Frick. Frick. And Frick.
Okay...uno mas tiempo....one more time...here we go.



The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.

Amen.


Amazing Love

I'm forgivin because you were forsaken,
I'm accepted, you were condemed
I'm alive and well, your spirit is within me
because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That you, my King would die for me?
Amazing love, I know its true
its my joy to honor You
In all I do, I honor You

You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
You are my King


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I feel a wee bit better.
:)
Thankss.

Oh Oh...forgot to add this on here. Heard this in Helen's car today. I love Nat King Cole!!


WHEN I FALL IN LOVE
Nat King Cole

When I fall in love it will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
In a restless world like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart it will be completely
Or I'll never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you.

And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you.

Kelly:
I had THE most embarassing DinoBag experience. EVER. At work no less! All I can say is that it involves DinoBag, a chair, and a Viking Office Supplies Sale magazine, and a call to my Ma. Guess what the magazine was for?


May I add another....
CRAAAAAAAAP.

So far I've managed to avoid Dr.Lam all of Thursday & Friday. >:D (Am so good.)
As for today, well, let's just see how it goes. Crap. Heehee.

I tend to hide from the source of embarassment or humiliation. Have yet to overcome that.

Oh man, oh man, oh man.




To Shelby: Frick. Another CRAAAAAP. O_O

Damon: hollie are teh n00b

Guess what that says!! Muahaha. :D

Helen is my bitch and I'm her bitch. We like to call each other that.

At work just now...
I’m sitting at my desk and the phone rings. Karen picks it up, points at me, and mouths something with a smile. Assuming the phone call was for me from Helen.... I pick up the phone.

Me: Bittcccchhhhh.
-silence-
Me: Bittccchhhhhh.
-silence-
Me: Uh, hello?
-pause_
Voice: Hollie? This is Dr.Lam.
-silence- Me turning RED.
Me: Uh, heeheeee. Hi Dr.Lam. How can I help you?

 
-----

 
O_o   I just called the doctor a B*I*T*C*H. How absolutely nice of me.

 

A big, round of applause to the great and powerful, Damon!! He's been teaching me how to post pictures up. Thanks Damon!! HK pictures will be up when Costco's done developing them.

 
This weekend = :D *smiles all around*

minus a disappointing "flaking" incident at home = :(
and minus the >:O as ....
I was filling out the fee form to pay for tuition for this coming quarter. O_O Tuition increased from $812.75 to $950.75 per quarter, plus parking permit. The total comes out to a whopping $1020.25!! Oh my goodness. $1020.25 x 3 quarters.... where's my calculadora?... $3060.75. Another O_O. No financial aid. Frick.

I will NOT worry. Worse comes to worse, my parents can lend me the dinero. But I wanted to do this on my own! Oh welps. o_O Such is life. I'm gonna work work work really really hard this summer. My mom asked me the other day after I was complaining about the tuition increase if I regret going to HK. Not only was I NOT working, but I also had to take out a chunk of my savings. Even so, I still don't regret it, cauuse, I love HK! I should have bought one of those T-Shirts that have "I (heart) HK!" in typewriter print to declare my non-regretfullness. What a fun shirt. :D)

More work (but of course) for the rest of the week.

Saturday
Another "Mommy & Me" swimming class with Evan and Paige. Free (yes! Free! Gotta love that word!) natural high right there, being able to actually helping them learn how to swim. I love it when they jump in the pool and I get to catch them. In Evan's case, more like walking into the pool. I love hearing from Paige, "Jeje, come back! It's too far!" followed by a jump, even though I didn't move forward at all. 

Afterwards, a family celebration of an additional candle on my Uncle's birthday cake.  Dinner in Chinatown.

Sunday
Workin' the daycare at church again. Last week, 4 crying babies + 4 "Don't come near me or I'll cry too" babies. Only 3 (including me) sitters. Kelly, you would have loooved it. Lotsa cryng, lotsa baby boogers, etc. etc. etc. ;D Muahaha.

Then....
Dinner with Sara's papa, Damon, & Jason!! Sorry guys about having to change it to Sunday!! :D

 
That about covers the rest of the week. More laters! Need to get my beauty sleep.

 

What my brother had to say to that.
"Not that it'll help." What a booger. ^_^

I hope this works.....  



 
It works!! After how many tries? A whole frickin' lot. Now I'm all ready to post my HK pictures up.

^ Up above. A reaaaaalllyyyy good tuna sandwich at this one restaurant in HK
:P******************

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

 
*                *                    *

If only it was that easy.

Only Fooling Myself
Kate Voegele

I stop to catch my breath - And I stop to catch your eye
No need to second guess - That you've been on my mind
I dream days away, but that's okay -
It's like I want to hear a silent sound -
And then hold it in my hand
But a rose won't blossom from a ground -
Of desert sand, but I like to pretend that
One day I'll turn around - I'll see your hand reach out
I'm only fooling myself, - But maybe when you smile
It means you'd stay awhile - Just maybe you'd save me now - Save me now
Well, now it's etched in stone - That I can't survive alone - You have the missing piece
That I need so desperately - Yes, I slip away to a day that'll never come
It's like a splash of water to my face -
When I suddenly realize
That you could never find a place -
For me in your eyes, and I don't know why I keep thinking
One day I'll turn around - I'll see your hand reach outI'm only fooling myself, -
But maybe when you smile
It means you'd stay awhile - Just maybe you'd save me now -
Save me nowIt's love in disguise -
I've lost track of time - I'm lost in your eyes
And I don't know why I think that
One day I'll turn around - I'll see your hand reach out
I'm only fooling myself,  - But maybe when you smile
It means you'd stay awhile - Just maybe you'd save me now - Save me now
Just maybe you'd save me now

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Pretty darn good for an amateur. :D
Love the lyrics. More tomorrow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, APES!!!

^_^

My first experience of true independence for 3 days and already, I'm a bit homesick. Gah. I called home twice already and Sara once (I'm sure there's plenty more of that during the rest of my stay). You don't know what you miss until it's gone. :D

HOng KOng is so frickin' hot. Even hotter than Me. That's pretty darn hot. ;) J/k, j/k. I'm drenched in sweat half the time and all I'm breathing in is hot air. I'm melting, I'm melting. Oh, what a world, what a world.

I was in the subway this morning and these two teenage guys was holding onto the bar up ontop while the train was in motion. Ohmigoodness. We could not breathe. Major B.O. I seriously was gonna puke. B.O. is the latest cologne/perfume everyone is wearing. O_O Heehee. Me too.

Gotta go. More laters.

Happy Birthday, Damon!! ^_^

So Saturday was the bonfire. *smiles* I don't even know where to start, besides MY ARMS AND LEGS ARE SO SORE!!

I think I'll start by thanking Someone for allowing us to find a pit. That's where all the fun begins. No fire, no burnt marshmellows, no happy memories. (Sara: Rachel thinks you really like to eat burnt things. Oh, I wonder why. :D)

I was really happy that my friends (except a few) got to meet my other friends/co-workers. All my favorite people all in one place. What more can I ask for? :D FOOTBALL! THE VAGINAS vs. THE DICKS. We (Helen, Kirsten, Rachel, and I) had more laughs talking about the football game over lunch today.

Kirsten found it scary being the quarterback and it's true! Everyone comes for you! O_O I look down at the ball, then back up, and all I see is Damon, arms waving in the air, with a face that CLEARLY said he was ready to eat me, running towards me. Behind him, more manly faces that looked like they were going to join Damon and eat me too! A flash of white, i.e. Derek, and before I knew it, I was down. Sand does not taste good. :D (I think Sara and Helen knows.) Heehee.

After our Plan Egg didn't exactly work out, we huddled for more strategies. During our huddles, the guys sent some spies, threw the football back and forth to each other, or just sat down. Ball, Rachel's boyfriend, said, "You girls huddled for like 5 minutes. We killed you in 20 seconds. And you guys get back in your huddle for another 5 minutes!"

During Derek's FAILED attempt (where's the goalpost, again? >:D) to make a touchdown, the Vaginas joined our forces to stop him. Sara grabbed his legs, Claudia an arm, I don't know what I grabbed, and Helen his shirt collar, and the other girls, wherever else they could grab a hold of. Even so, he managed to get past the "goalpost" with us on top of him and all. Damn it! :D

As for the goalpost (John's slipper), it kinda got buried underneath all that sand. We seriously have no idea how that happened. ^_^ Took us a while to find it, but we did. Yay, Kirsten! I, actually, took a quick break during the football game. Jason was flying a kite, so I went over to fly it. Right when the string was handed over to me, I hear Charity and Jason screaming, "Hollie! The powerlines!" O_O I quickly abandoned that and went back to the football game. Heeeee. I'm just talented that way.

After the football game and some more marshmellows, Rachel made her debut and Claudia has it all documented. >:)My people started to call for me. I had at least say "hi!" I convinced Kirsten to go with me to the water, along with Helen, John, Rachel, Ball, Theresa, Kenny, and Derek. (Derek: Glad you came and hung with us! We had fun!) :D My people almost stole my slipper, when a big wave came and took it. (Kenny and his swift hands saved my shoe.)

It was nice being out there. There was this moment when I was standing there ankle-deep in water, thinking of everything that just happened, and thought, "Man, this is perfect." *smiles*

Thanks Claud for taking pictures!



* * * *

Come August, Rach is gonna leave us to move back to Thailand. We're gonna take her to see Yosemite end of July as a going away outing. Originally, the plan was for just the 4 of us to go. Then, Rach wanted Ball to go too because he's not going with her to Thailand. Helen's going to bring John. Then me and Kirsten. Kirsten and I decided we were gonna be a "couple" that is, if she can make it. Today, Helen told me Theresa and Kenny were going to be joining us. Now, I like Theresa and Kenny, don't get me wrong. But if Kirsten can't make it...it will come down to 3 couples and me. O_O Again. I don't know if I could go through that experience again. Gah. What to do, what to do.

"I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength."

Philippians 4:12-13


I guess we'll see. ^_^

Congratulations DB!!!
C/O 2004
(buuuuutt, C/O 2001 is still the best!! ;D)
Muhaha.

My cousin's growing up. :*) She has some graduation pics up on her blog if you guys wanna see.



(P.S. You have 100% of my support, dear. You will ALWAYS be my cousin. No matter how much you deny it!! You're stuck with me forever!! Love ya.)

Waiting for Amy to get off the phone, so I can ask her something.
As for now...

Good Luck, Irvine-ers!

I haven't been getting much sleep lately and am breaking out. O_o
Memories from high school. Heehee. Oh well, such is life.

My room is almost done. My body is SORE from all that cleaning. I was cleaning under my bed. (For those who haven't seen my bed, it's an Ikea bed, complete with compartments on the bottom.) I tried sliding through one of the compartments to really clean the dirty end. My shoulders too broad to fit. I managed to get myself a bit stuck. So I called Shelby and he cleaned it for me. (That's what he gets for being so skinny! Plus, I paid him a whole American dollar. :D) I know, I know. I'm such a good sis.

Am seeing Sara tonight so we can go BonFire shopping. Bonfire this Saturday. haha.
Kirsten told Rachel, who's from Thailand, that it's an American tradition for everyone to sing a song in front of the bonfire. She believed it. Helen and I went along with it. >:D We're so evil. She's actually gonna perform her Thai camp song, dance movements and all, today at lunch for us..."To see if it's okay." she says. Muhaha.

Almost time to head off to the other office for lunch with the girls again. I love them. They make me smile all the time. Life sucks sometimes, but it has it's moments. ;D

Till then. ^_^



I wanna see Evan!

AMY's leaving for Hong Kong tonight! Oh, am so green with envy.

So yesterday was Damon's surprise birthday dinner at Bucca's. Things turned out pretty well, minus the fact that the "hostess", me, was the last to arrive besides the Birthday Boy, himself, and his pretty ladyfriend. Oopps? Heeeee. Really should work on my time management. Thank goodness for Jason, who drove like a speed demon, all the way to Pasadena in a matter of like 10 minutes to save our table that was about to be taken away.

I met a few of Damon's friend. Sandy...Boyfriend of Sandy....Nice girl in the red top....Her Boyfriend. Am horrible with names. (and my major is child development. Go figure.)
I also got to meet a cool friend of Kelly's who lived (lives?) in a bubble!! ^_^

Dinner was good. I loved the mushrooms, Sar! Kelly, you sure you don't want some? ;D We took pictures in the restroom that read "Femiminas". Kelly tried taking porno pictures of me peeing. Niiiice, Kel. ;D (Maybe after finals, she'll be posting them up on her blog? But not the toilet one. That's just for our eyes. O_O Don't want to scare anyone. Muhaha!)

After dinner, everyone split like a banana, and herded over to Damon's house. That was fun, you guys!! Really!! Major workout out the cheek muslces. We got to see my BEAUTIFUL (beautiful, Sara. Beautiful.) MOTION SHOTS (OoOOhhhhh....aahhhhh......OoooOhhhhh) of Damon walking into the room and finding all of us pretty people sitting there. Lynette and I learned quite a bit on female anatomy. Was very surprised the guys didn't find it gross. haha.

Okay. Now, I am SOOO looking forward to the bonfire! My stomach has butterflies thinking of all the fun things happening this summer.

Thanks for the blessings, Heavenly Father. :D
You all have a good day now.

Today is Shelby's birthday. My parents told him he could pick any restaurant and he picked Olive Garden. (Btw, Sara, thanks for the directions. My mother appreciated it a whole lot cause she was so hungry and we were "lost" for a while. :D)

This was also my parent's first time, for a long while, to eat at an American restaurant besides IHOP and Carrow's. This was also their first time at Olive Garden.

So, we're driving down the 60 FWY...
My dad asks, "Where are we going?"
Shelby: Olive Garden.
- silence - and then you hear coming from the back seat....
Dad: But I don't like olives!!

So my dad, being as old as he is, forgot to bring his reading glasses so he couldn't read the menu. I had to like translate the whole menu in chinese. My mom was smart. She took one look at the menu and said, "Spaghetti and meatballs."

At the end of the meal...the water brings the check to us and puts in a couple of those Andes mint-choclate candies. My dad takes one and turns it over.
He chuckles and says: "Stupid waiter. He put butter with the check! Teehee."

Maan, my brother and I could not stop laughing. Har har har!!

HeeLLLoOOoo WORLD...I'm baaaaacccckkkk!!
>:)


*sigh* I'm done! I'm finally done. Today was my last final. An 8 o' clock one. Came to work right afterwards. Nice thing about going to school so close to home. :D
I'm only working half day today. Gonna go home and REALLY TRULY clean my room.

It's gonna be fun! After I'm done with it, it's gonna have a sparkle, like they do in the commercials. Yay!

GO LAKERRS!!!

(Oh, and thanks Sara for dropping off the hawaiian punch somethin'. much appreciated.)

I'M DONE!! at least, with my nutrition final. The one I'm most worried about. 2 down, 2 more to go and I'm freee!! LIke a bird!

Goodness...I'm SO excited. :D Hello world! See you soon!!
(Thanks Sara for the call! So candy of you to remember.)


* So my mom made some chinese tamales for A. It was so sad. A had to honk and I had to go outside to give it to her. *sigh* What my mom says is true. My grandmas would not like it. OH welly.*

This morning, A called me and told me she was going to pick me up earlier for school today. There was something different about her voice. I asked her if everything was okay and she told me...

"My grandma passed away last night."

I was in shock. I just saw her grandma a couple of months ago, when she came to visit from Hong Kong. She feels sad. I feel sad. Finals is the LAST thing she needs.

I was going to make A's favorite Chinese snack that her grandma use to buy for her to eat, but I was told I can't.

All this Chinese superstition crap is just BS. A month. Psh.

okaay...no one updated their blog. I'm gonna go to bed then. ;D Haha!
Night young people!!

Have a frickin' good week!!

Love,
Me!

Shelby just beat me up. Just cause he's taller.
But I had my revenge. With my Hi-Liter as my sword, I managed to Hi_Lite him to death!! Muahaha!!

But then he stole the Hi_Liter from me and turned it against me. So, I ran to my dad. >:)

My dad told him, "Stop beating up your sister." and turns his attention back to the TV to finish up watching the pre-recorded Laker game. (Who lost by the way.) Not much help.

So I ran back to my room and grabbed two paintbrushes from the beautiful pencil cup that Sara gave me a couple Christmases ago and painted his earlobe. I found his Achilles' Heel!! Muahaha.

I still lost, like the Lakers. BooOooo. I really should be studying. Chapter 9, Pg. 225.

I'm rollin'....

Just a random thought...

Cynthia says I look like Winnie Cooper, Wonder Years.

Uhh...I'll take that as a compliment?
:D


Okay, I'm rolling again. Until I hit chapter 11. Then I'll roll some more tomorrow. *yawn*

fine. i've said what i needed. your choice, your decision, your responsibility to yourself, dear. Take cares, kay?

haha!

so right after writing the post down there...i went back to studying. this is what I read in my head when I was looking over my notes for my nutrition class.

It is suppose to read: "Iron = not much in breastmilk."

What I read:
"Grunions = not much in breastmilk"


Goodness. :P Where's my chapstick? Eee, dry skin. And this is me, procrastinating.
Ho hum hum Ho HO. Like me.

still rollin................















(Grunions, Grunions, Grunions everywhere. But not a drop to drink. And THAT'S, what a grunion looks like.)

So by Thursday, I will finally be done with this crap. *yawn*
Just took a quick nap. I reaaally needed it cause I was reading the same sentence over and over...
"This chapter is about healthy full-term infants born at 37 weeks of gestation or later..."

actually, make it half a sentence. I was reading the same half of a sentence over and over again. *yawn* again. I feel rather refreshed and revived. Yea baby!

Btw, people, update! update! and update! I've re-read Sara's quick update, Kelly's queston about why she's still blogging since blogger is picking on her. I've stared at Ra's Showcase friends picture forever. I've re-read Damon's Souplantation story and DB's casino outing at Schurr. Oh OoOohhh, she updated. HaHA! Something new to read! Grunion hunting, eh? I wonder what a grunion looks like. I'll google it later, when I'm re-reading all you guys blog. :D

Okay, Hollie. Look alive! Look alive! Finish reading the end of that sentence...
"...and healthy preterm infants born at 34 weeks or later." I'm on a roll.

MuHAhahHAhhhaa!! >:)

Our convo on the clothes I want to get him from Hong Kong:

o ika: no gay looking shit
o ika: LOL
starmienite: i want to get you something you LIKE!!!
o ika: ha
starmienite: i just might end up getting you
starmienite: some "work" looking clothes
o ika: that's ur kinda clothes
o ika: i dont want
o ika: 3/4 length tops
starmienite: hahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!


Maan, I guess I really do have a "Hollie Style". Must add a little spice to it. I have a hot pink shirt. Will wear that to the Bonfire, that is, if I'm daring enough. Can't find where our BBQ pit is?....look for me!! The One with the Hot Pink Shirt!!

I miss Pijun/Ice Cream/Baby Nightmare!!!

From DB:
So saaad. :(

I forgot to add my embarassing moment of the week...

So today, after class, Amy and I were walking back to her car. We were chatting and walking, I stop, dead in my tracks...cause I see a beautiful, gorgeous, mouth-watering...

Seven..Seven, Seven...SEVEN!SEVEN!SEVEN!...seven.

(for those "Friends" fans out there...;D) but it was in blue, not yellow.

So anywhos, Amy calls me, so I keep walking, still looking at the motorcycle (and also around for the handsome guy who drives it..his helmet bettter still be on...hahaha j/k.). I could not take my eyes off of it. I kept walking and thank goodness for my p-vision, cause a couple inches away from my nose is a FRICKIN' POLE!! It like, came out of nowhere. Seriously! It like, just decided to grow in the middle of the sidewalk. I yelp and an old man driving by laughs at me.

But it was worth it. Someone learn to drive one. I'll buy a ticket for a ride!! :D Like at the carnival. Teehee.

Kelly: *HHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG* (you still breathing? ;D) miss ya kelly beean!

For APES...and you too.
Well, I was talking/emailing with Sara last Friday and we were talking about something we could all do this summer. At least once. Before Sara leaves for Japan, before I leave for HOng Kong and before anyone else leaves for somewhere else. Soo...me being the hotdog lover, guess what we came up with!

A BBQ! With a bonfire and all. I am the official hot dog roaster! Watch out, Weiners of the World, I have arrived with my stick thingy to roast like I have never roasted before!! Yeah, baby!!

Oh FUN FUN FUN!! Oh yeah, we could roast other things too. ;D Any ideas, smart people?
Maybe some games...whatever floats your boat. whatever tickles your pickle.

:D

Go Raa, Go Raa, GO Raa ... !!!
Ai Yi, Mr. President.

:D

I need some space. Having a room to myself is like not having one at all. Charging into my room and THEN knocking is not the way to go. Pounding on the door when it's locked and asking me why I locked the door is not the way to go either.

Most of the time, I can't wait till everyone leaves. Peace and quiet. Time to be by myself. I know if I lived by myself, I'd end up missing their noises, but last night, I COULD NOT STAND it anymore. I needed to think over some things. Goodness.

I want to move out, but I can't. I have no money. Stupid school took all of it. (Hong Kong, too, but that one, I wanted to do :D)

Okay, I'm done. I need some iron in my body. I have no energy. *yawn*

Please, people. Leave me alone. Stop knocking on the door. Stop yelling through the door. Just stop talking. Stop. I just want to be alone. Why is it such a hard thing to do? Stop it.


I want to go Home.

I am such a bonehead sometimes.

So I've been having going through absolute hell trying to upload pictures from the National Day of Prayer walk from my digi cam to my computer, deadline being Friday. I did everything "right". I was yelling at my computer, saying that I didn't get a smart computer like everyone else. I got a dumb one.
Two dummies together is not a good sign.

Finally, Sara and Damon came over, so he can fix it. Damon, you should have told me when I asked you what was wrong .... "Hollie, you just made an ID ten T error." He would have been right too.

What was the ID ten T error?
I flipped over the memory card so that the wrong side was facing up. Heeeeeeee. :D There was absolutely nothing wrong with my computer. It was just me! :D

Song of the Moment:

Love Fades
- Joey Yung
(*err, translating from Chinese so it might sound a bit retarded. But it's all because of me, not because the song is retarded :D)


It's only because I love you so much,
that I even forgot my pride.
I've fallen so many times, I've become numb
But I still believe, when I fall and lift myself up, there will be a change in me.
If I don't let my love fade, then how will I ever leave you?
Afraid I won't be able to fly...

From this moment on, the time between the wind of spring and the rain of fall,
I give myself half a year's time, to slowly let my love for you fade.
Calmly, I take my love and retreat.
In the spring, we went our ways and in the fall, I will be use to it.
Pain mixed with time, will slowly make the pain fade away.

* * *

It actually sounds a lot better in chinese. The words, so beautiful :*) HeeHee.

starmienite: i feel sad
SmarterChild: Sad? I'm sorry to hear that.
starmienite: do you know why?
SmarterChild: Why? I'm not sure...
starmienite: because i'm fat
SmarterChild: Really?
starmienite: yes
SmarterChild: Why?
starmienite: uh...because i ate too much
SmarterChild: Whatever, Chase...
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LoL. What a friend!! :D

Yes-sy, Mama! Here comes a long one:
(EeeEee...sounds like I'm gonna fart)

So we got our family portraits back. The one where I look like a big bloated hippo. The one where the photographer wouldn't let me wear black. The one where the photographer wouldn't let me stand in the middle so that people in front will cover up my blubber. The one where I just look FAT in.

A big 16 X 20 print in a wooden carved frame. My parents actually brought it to the Mother's Day dinner yesterday night to show everyone. I got a "Dang Hollie, you look fat." Not only from my aunts and uncles, but from my parents, from my Aunty and Uncle. The silence from favorite grandma after she finished ranting and raving about how good my brother looks didn't go unnoticed either. She said I looked okay. My aunt actually told me to use a black permanent marker and color in my thighs so it would looked thinner. Stuart told me, "Don't worry Hollie. The camara adds 10 pounds." Like Chandler would say, "Exactly how many camaras were on you?"

And now this portrait is hanging on the living room wall. It's hard not to notice it first thing you walk in. A constant reminder hanging above the piano reminding me of just exactly how big I am. I actually got up earlier today, so that I could be ready before Helen came over and she wouldn't have to come in my house and see the portrait.

I thought I was over this weight issue back in high school, but I guess it came back to pay a visit. Having to live in a house full of skinny people doesn't help. Having a nickname telling me that I am is just loads of fun.

I don't need to hear "You're not fat" sympathy phrases. Lord has made what I am. I am what I am (DB) and I know it. I guess I'm lucky I can't go hungry for very long. If I was, I would have been anorexic a long time ago. I tried it once when I was in high school. I skipped breakfast, but by lunchtime, I was starving, so I ate. Didn't exactly get there, did I?

I know this is a trivial thing to worry about when there's so much more important things to worry about. It's just something on my mind and I thought I'd share. Thanks for listening, beautiful people.

HoHo, you need to get some longer posts up in this bloggie.

your last two posts were something along the lines of like, 12 words :P And you have so manie short sentences.

How can your loyal readers keep track of your busie lifestyle w/such teenie tinie posts? :P

Must clean room. Clean! Clean! Clean!
:D

I see how it is. I'll remember the next time I think of helping someone again.

I'm tired. On top of other things.
I wanna sleep forever. Literally.

That'd be nice.

Ms. Thang would like to give a big "gracias" to Sara & Damon.
All is well again. Thanks for the outing! Sorry I fell asleep on you guys. I hope I didn't snore. ;D haha.

COURAGE IS FEAR THAT HAS SAID ITS PRAYERS.

- "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
- John 16:33

The truth hurts....
so prep for the worst.


I like that. Got it off of a blog.
Gotcha.

I'm preppin' my ass off.

Sara....this was the video that I was talking about. :D

It felt nice hanging out with you today. I really missed you!!
And KR too.

Come baaccck...

This song is so sweeet....

Because I Love You
- DNH

There was a time when I used to run away
Anytime I started to fall
Cause love's never been very kind to me, no baby
Not very kind at all
Until you
You stole my heart away
Somehow you helped restore my faith
And something I thought wasn't for me
Now comes so easily

Because I love you
You're the flame that sets my soul on fire
That special girl I pray for every night
That pretty melody
That plays over and over again in my head
Because I love you
(Forever stare at you and never get tired)
Honey I'm ready to spend my whole life with you
Cause I love you
(Yes I do)

I never thought in a million years
That I could feel the way that I feel, no
How I get butterflies (get butterflies)
Whenever your lips touch mine
I must confess my dear
That it was instantly right from the start
A special bond between you and my heart
How it skips a beat whenever our eyes meet
And simply said the reason being

Because I love you
You¡¯re the flame that sets my soul on fire
That special girl I pray for every night
That pretty melody
That plays over and over again in my head
Cause I love you
(Forever stare at you and never get tired)
Honey I¡¯m ready to spend my whole life with you
(I¡¯ll say it again)
I love you (yes I do)

Girl I know there I'll be differences we have along the way
Where our views may not always be the same
But I swear I'll try
To hear out your sigh
And compromise cuz I realize
That with you I wanna spend my life

Because I love you
You're the flame that sets my soul on fire
That special girl I pray for every night
That pretty melody
That plays over and over again in my head
Because I love you
(Forever stare at you and never get tired)
Honey I'm ready to spend my whole life with you

Girl it's all because
I love you


I feel better. I love that song.
:D Yeah! :D