I was brushing my teeth just now and figured out why at least for me, how I was able to let it all hang out at the party. It was with a whole different group of people other than KRSH. It was extremely puzzling for me. This is what I think.
Because Pearl wasn't there.
People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers. - Grey's Anatomy (Because I'm not eloquent enough to say something like that.)
Friday, March 28, 2003
I don't even know where to begin on how much fun I had yesterday.
Well, yesterday was like any other day. School. It was so WARM yesterday. Warm enough for Ra to go outside and tan. Honestly, I hate hot weather. I get hot, sticky, & smelly. So the part where I had to walk 3 blocks at 3 in the afternoon to get to class at ELAC was definately not the highlight of my day. My poor table. They had to smell me. I went home and took a long cold shower. Ahhh...I almost fell asleep in there. :) I was ready. Thursday night was the night of Katerine's daugher's first birthday.
I was suppose to drive over to GCC and pick Helen, Kirsten and Rachel up so we can all hop on over to her house.
So, looking down at the clock in the restroom. I have to leave at 630. It was only 625. I just have to dry my hair. I still have time. By the time I finished, it was 635. Hurry or I'm gonna be late! I skip to my room to grab a jacket and glanced at the clock on my desk. 6:45! The hell! I check the other 2 clocks in my room and all read 645! The clock in the bathroom is running out of batteries. 10 minutes slow! I'M LATE!! Kirsten calls me and asks me, "Where are you?" They all screamed, "What?!?!" when I answered I was at home. (KIrsten's parents just came home from Hong Kong, so she wanted to see them, so we were sort of on a scheduele). So I hurried my ass on outta there and drove wildly (literally) over to GCC. I arrived in 10 minutes. The fun starts here.
"Hi Dr. Tam! Bye Dr. Tam!" in parking lot...run to the door...punch in code to unlock door...run up stairs...Kirsten and Rachel running down and shooing me, Helen still screaming "The lights! The lights!" Laugh here ...I run back downstairs...Kirsten almost rolled down the stairs Laugh here cause she couldn't see with the lights off...I run to turn on lights, Kirsten punches Helen out (hahaha...CLOCKED Helen out...hahaha), Rachel opens door...and all 4 of us run! I open the doors to my car, Kirsten runs into my car, Helen brings files to Pearl's office, and Rachel's still trying to run and drink her coffee at the same time. Ends up chocking. Laugh here
Don't ask me why we were rushing like that. We weren't late. It was fun though. Like those relay races! We got there in one piece.
Katherine's house was bustling with people. We did a little wine-tasting and from there, EVERYTHING was funny. (We only had a sip and I diluted mine with 7-Up! We were so frickin' LOUD. I think cause we always had to contain ourselves because we are in a doctor's office. How much noise can we make there? So last night, we just let it all hang out! *Think Larson here*) There was never a dull moment. I never stopped smiling. Until, they all found out that I was scared of loud noises. They started popping those things with the string at the end and confetti stuff and a very very LOUD noise, I might add, comes out. They all came after me with that. They Laugh here That was scary. Me no likey. :) We roasted marshmellows. Rachel didn't want to do it, so I told her "But it's an American tradition!" (She came here about 5 months ago from Thailand.) She kept asking if her marshmello was cooked yet or if it was still raw. Laugh here. There was also a pinata! Sara, it was a Disney Princesses pinanta! Rachel didn't want to play either, so I told her "But it's an American tradition!" They Laugh here AT me, this time. Honest mistake once again. I missed the pinata and hit the pole. I tell you, I'm no good at sports.
Whew, the last time I was so *HIGH* was when KRSH was at Sara's apartment and we took those pooping pictures with Ra's brown sweater.
When we were driving back to GCC, we sort of settled down, and we were not *HIGH* anymore, we were at a *LOW*. But I slept so well last night. *good job*
Now, tonights another night of fun! *Whoa* Another *HIGH* tonight. I'm going to OD on life.
Well, yesterday was like any other day. School. It was so WARM yesterday. Warm enough for Ra to go outside and tan. Honestly, I hate hot weather. I get hot, sticky, & smelly. So the part where I had to walk 3 blocks at 3 in the afternoon to get to class at ELAC was definately not the highlight of my day. My poor table. They had to smell me. I went home and took a long cold shower. Ahhh...I almost fell asleep in there. :) I was ready. Thursday night was the night of Katerine's daugher's first birthday.
I was suppose to drive over to GCC and pick Helen, Kirsten and Rachel up so we can all hop on over to her house.
So, looking down at the clock in the restroom. I have to leave at 630. It was only 625. I just have to dry my hair. I still have time. By the time I finished, it was 635. Hurry or I'm gonna be late! I skip to my room to grab a jacket and glanced at the clock on my desk. 6:45! The hell! I check the other 2 clocks in my room and all read 645! The clock in the bathroom is running out of batteries. 10 minutes slow! I'M LATE!! Kirsten calls me and asks me, "Where are you?" They all screamed, "What?!?!" when I answered I was at home. (KIrsten's parents just came home from Hong Kong, so she wanted to see them, so we were sort of on a scheduele). So I hurried my ass on outta there and drove wildly (literally) over to GCC. I arrived in 10 minutes. The fun starts here.
"Hi Dr. Tam! Bye Dr. Tam!" in parking lot...run to the door...punch in code to unlock door...run up stairs...Kirsten and Rachel running down and shooing me, Helen still screaming "The lights! The lights!" Laugh here ...I run back downstairs...Kirsten almost rolled down the stairs Laugh here cause she couldn't see with the lights off...I run to turn on lights, Kirsten punches Helen out (hahaha...CLOCKED Helen out...hahaha), Rachel opens door...and all 4 of us run! I open the doors to my car, Kirsten runs into my car, Helen brings files to Pearl's office, and Rachel's still trying to run and drink her coffee at the same time. Ends up chocking. Laugh here
Don't ask me why we were rushing like that. We weren't late. It was fun though. Like those relay races! We got there in one piece.
Katherine's house was bustling with people. We did a little wine-tasting and from there, EVERYTHING was funny. (We only had a sip and I diluted mine with 7-Up! We were so frickin' LOUD. I think cause we always had to contain ourselves because we are in a doctor's office. How much noise can we make there? So last night, we just let it all hang out! *Think Larson here*) There was never a dull moment. I never stopped smiling. Until, they all found out that I was scared of loud noises. They started popping those things with the string at the end and confetti stuff and a very very LOUD noise, I might add, comes out. They all came after me with that. They Laugh here That was scary. Me no likey. :) We roasted marshmellows. Rachel didn't want to do it, so I told her "But it's an American tradition!" (She came here about 5 months ago from Thailand.) She kept asking if her marshmello was cooked yet or if it was still raw. Laugh here. There was also a pinata! Sara, it was a Disney Princesses pinanta! Rachel didn't want to play either, so I told her "But it's an American tradition!" They Laugh here AT me, this time. Honest mistake once again. I missed the pinata and hit the pole. I tell you, I'm no good at sports.
Whew, the last time I was so *HIGH* was when KRSH was at Sara's apartment and we took those pooping pictures with Ra's brown sweater.
When we were driving back to GCC, we sort of settled down, and we were not *HIGH* anymore, we were at a *LOW*. But I slept so well last night. *good job*
Now, tonights another night of fun! *Whoa* Another *HIGH* tonight. I'm going to OD on life.
Thursday, March 27, 2003
Wednesday, March 26, 2003
KRS(h) Please check your e-mails.
I went to work today, which means....PARTY on Friday all the way to Saturday! :) For once, I get to have a life on those two days! Cheers all around! I am so frickin' excited!!
That's the good news.
Bad News of the Day:
As I was on Garfield, waiting to make a left into the street by the florist, I saw a very old Chinese man fall off the curb and into the street. Thank goodness there was no car going by or else it would have hit him. Half of his head was covered in blood. I made my left and searched for a place to stop my car, so I just blocked someone's driveway. By that time, a girl found them and pointed them into the direction of the hospital, about a block down the street. I got out wanting to ask them if they needed a ride to the hospital. They walk fast for old people, cause they were already halfway down the block *by the time I reached the corner and I wasn't that far away either. It made me feel a little better that he was able to walk. I drove into the alley that leads to GCC, where I work, and I saw the old couple reaching the hospital. *whew*
I'm still a little shooken up from it. I know I don't know that old man, but he reminded me of my Grandpa and the old woman reminded of my Grandma. It felt like it was happening to them, so I freaked.
Something else that bothered me was that a car was waiting to turn right and the old man fell right IN FRONT of that red van. You know what the stupid Chinese lady in the red van did? Nothing! She waited till the little old lady slowly helped him get up and out of her way, so then, she went on ahead and made her right turn. What the hell was that!
*I'm also a little mad at myself cause I didn't exactly leap out of my car. I just sat there, thinking "I have to help him. I have to help him." By the time I actually got my ass out of my car, it was too late. Boo on my part. I'm just as bad as that Chinese lady in the red van.
And that was my scary incident of the day. :|
I went to work today, which means....PARTY on Friday all the way to Saturday! :) For once, I get to have a life on those two days! Cheers all around! I am so frickin' excited!!
That's the good news.
Bad News of the Day:
As I was on Garfield, waiting to make a left into the street by the florist, I saw a very old Chinese man fall off the curb and into the street. Thank goodness there was no car going by or else it would have hit him. Half of his head was covered in blood. I made my left and searched for a place to stop my car, so I just blocked someone's driveway. By that time, a girl found them and pointed them into the direction of the hospital, about a block down the street. I got out wanting to ask them if they needed a ride to the hospital. They walk fast for old people, cause they were already halfway down the block *by the time I reached the corner and I wasn't that far away either. It made me feel a little better that he was able to walk. I drove into the alley that leads to GCC, where I work, and I saw the old couple reaching the hospital. *whew*
I'm still a little shooken up from it. I know I don't know that old man, but he reminded me of my Grandpa and the old woman reminded of my Grandma. It felt like it was happening to them, so I freaked.
Something else that bothered me was that a car was waiting to turn right and the old man fell right IN FRONT of that red van. You know what the stupid Chinese lady in the red van did? Nothing! She waited till the little old lady slowly helped him get up and out of her way, so then, she went on ahead and made her right turn. What the hell was that!
*I'm also a little mad at myself cause I didn't exactly leap out of my car. I just sat there, thinking "I have to help him. I have to help him." By the time I actually got my ass out of my car, it was too late. Boo on my part. I'm just as bad as that Chinese lady in the red van.
And that was my scary incident of the day. :|
Monday, March 24, 2003
Everyone's back and bloggin'. Good to read! :)
Saturday was like any other Saturday. Work, Chinese school, Aunty's house for Paigey's b-day. She LOVED the mini karaoke boombox that Sara chose for her. "Thank koo, Un-tee Sah Rah." Paigey says. I "sang" while she gibberished along. She's sweet as a Sourcream Blueberry Pie from Marie Callenders! Then that would make her sour. So Paigey is as sweet as sugar! There. After we put her too bed, (45 minutes of chasing after her to put on her diaper, brush her teeth, and what not. Too much sugar from the many days of birthday cakes!!... Stuart's Mom (3/18) Stuart (3/19) Aunty (3/21) Paige (3/22) My Aunty is officially tried of cakes in general, be it a mango cake or a ice-cream cake, she won't eat it. ) My Aunty and I settled down and watched Sweet Home Alabama , while Shelby and Stuart played this rather violet game of Halo, where you go in with the goal of killing each other. We stayed till 12.... AM!! Yes I know. 12 AM. My parents didn't come home from partyin' till 1 AM in the frickin' morning.
Sunday, went out with Ra to Old Town. Don't know what we did, but we had fun. Came home early to go to Cafe Spot for dinner where Shelby treated us. :) We ran some errands afterwards. I wasn't feeling too well after dinner cause I was sititng right beneath the AC vent, so all this cold air was blowing on my head. Maybe I should have moved.
Today, Monday...ELAC Philosophy --> drove to CSULB --> Language Lab for 45 mintues --> Lunch for 15 minutes --> Physics Lab for 3 very long hours --> Back to Language Lab for another 30 minutes --> Home. I was going to stop by Jack in the Box for some potato wedges, but I think I was thinking F4 and didn't even realized I had past it till I got home.
And right now, I am doing what I do best. Procrastinating. I should really read Chapter 5.2 on Ethical Egoism. What the hell is that. I think I should know. Let me see...
Saturday was like any other Saturday. Work, Chinese school, Aunty's house for Paigey's b-day. She LOVED the mini karaoke boombox that Sara chose for her. "Thank koo, Un-tee Sah Rah." Paigey says. I "sang" while she gibberished along. She's sweet as a Sourcream Blueberry Pie from Marie Callenders! Then that would make her sour. So Paigey is as sweet as sugar! There. After we put her too bed, (45 minutes of chasing after her to put on her diaper, brush her teeth, and what not. Too much sugar from the many days of birthday cakes!!... Stuart's Mom (3/18) Stuart (3/19) Aunty (3/21) Paige (3/22) My Aunty is officially tried of cakes in general, be it a mango cake or a ice-cream cake, she won't eat it. ) My Aunty and I settled down and watched Sweet Home Alabama , while Shelby and Stuart played this rather violet game of Halo, where you go in with the goal of killing each other. We stayed till 12.... AM!! Yes I know. 12 AM. My parents didn't come home from partyin' till 1 AM in the frickin' morning.
Sunday, went out with Ra to Old Town. Don't know what we did, but we had fun. Came home early to go to Cafe Spot for dinner where Shelby treated us. :) We ran some errands afterwards. I wasn't feeling too well after dinner cause I was sititng right beneath the AC vent, so all this cold air was blowing on my head. Maybe I should have moved.
Today, Monday...ELAC Philosophy --> drove to CSULB --> Language Lab for 45 mintues --> Lunch for 15 minutes --> Physics Lab for 3 very long hours --> Back to Language Lab for another 30 minutes --> Home. I was going to stop by Jack in the Box for some potato wedges, but I think I was thinking F4 and didn't even realized I had past it till I got home.
And right now, I am doing what I do best. Procrastinating. I should really read Chapter 5.2 on Ethical Egoism. What the hell is that. I think I should know. Let me see...
Friday, March 21, 2003
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
I am never waking up late again. I woke up at 9 this morning cause my Philosophy class was canceled, and now, I feel all groggy. I ended up taking a 15 minute nap. What the heck, huh? Never sleeping in again.
Today, so far, has been pretty relaxing. I finished up my Art Notebook for my "Creative Experiences for Children." Thank goodness I checked cause I had some missing projects. Finger painting, for one! Ugh, that was gross. My fingers got all stained. After that, I did some Physics homework. I figure out this really awesome way of doing my homework on the computer. I arranged so that my Microsoft Word window took up half my screen, and occupying the other half, was the window for my VCD player. Can you guess what I was watching? METEOR GARDEN! I don't even have to turn my head. My P-Vision comes in handy. Am I smart or what? Lol. But sometimes it gets too distracting, so I have to turn it off. :P
Caught Sara online and we chatted for a little while. She disappeared on me for the past couple of days. She's going out with Damon today, to the musuem and other fun things. :)
Ra called while he was on the bus on the way to the airport. Told me he was going to Burbank. "Why are you going to Burbank? We live in Montebello." Apparently, they have an airport in Burbank. I did not know that. *wrinkle of the brain* RS(H) is going out for coffee and a quick run to a fast food place tonight. Probably Jack in the Box.
And that is my day so far. Thank you for reading. You have yourself a nice day too.
Today, so far, has been pretty relaxing. I finished up my Art Notebook for my "Creative Experiences for Children." Thank goodness I checked cause I had some missing projects. Finger painting, for one! Ugh, that was gross. My fingers got all stained. After that, I did some Physics homework. I figure out this really awesome way of doing my homework on the computer. I arranged so that my Microsoft Word window took up half my screen, and occupying the other half, was the window for my VCD player. Can you guess what I was watching? METEOR GARDEN! I don't even have to turn my head. My P-Vision comes in handy. Am I smart or what? Lol. But sometimes it gets too distracting, so I have to turn it off. :P
Caught Sara online and we chatted for a little while. She disappeared on me for the past couple of days. She's going out with Damon today, to the musuem and other fun things. :)
Ra called while he was on the bus on the way to the airport. Told me he was going to Burbank. "Why are you going to Burbank? We live in Montebello." Apparently, they have an airport in Burbank. I did not know that. *wrinkle of the brain* RS(H) is going out for coffee and a quick run to a fast food place tonight. Probably Jack in the Box.
And that is my day so far. Thank you for reading. You have yourself a nice day too.
DB gave this to me. It's nice. :-)
Sometimes i cry
but i can't tell you why
why i feel what i feel inside
when i say inside, i mean deep inside
that's something i can't explain
it's over me
how i try to express
what's been troublin' my mind
but still i can't find the words
but i know that something's got a hold of me.
I think she got it from Chicken Soup for the Soul. Ha.
Sometimes i cry
but i can't tell you why
why i feel what i feel inside
when i say inside, i mean deep inside
that's something i can't explain
it's over me
how i try to express
what's been troublin' my mind
but still i can't find the words
but i know that something's got a hold of me.
I think she got it from Chicken Soup for the Soul. Ha.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003
Monday, March 17, 2003
Playing on WinAmP: Qiu Jiu Zhuan Xian - Vic Zhou
and it's a happy song, so I'm happy. :P
Hotline For Help
Sorry, it's me, it seems that I just forgot to say
I really want to see you, but we just separated
Don't mind me, even I can't stand myself
Suddenly I am turning meek and submissive
I worry, I wonder, I am growing less like myself
Just because of you, my thoughts of you are like air to me
Helpline, pardon me, I have a hundred questions
How do I stop this?
Concrete roads like meadows to me, but it's ok, nobody's teasing me
O and, how do I regain my cool?
Excuse me, it's me again, I unexpectedly saw a rerun
Of that movie, the one you always miss
Don't blame me for not letting others get through to you
Because I need to know that you are mine and mine only
I worry, I wonder, I am turning into someone else
Just because of you, taking your words to be Scriptures
Helpline I love you, one LAST little question,
How do I keep all this sweetness
Concrete roads are meadows, when I stand with you
Oh and...
Okay, that song was playing on Winamp. Now it's another song. Lol. Chinese rap. Ha. I'll put it up next time. Debby laughs at Irvine Guy's (Vaness) rapping.
and it's a happy song, so I'm happy. :P
Hotline For Help
Sorry, it's me, it seems that I just forgot to say
I really want to see you, but we just separated
Don't mind me, even I can't stand myself
Suddenly I am turning meek and submissive
I worry, I wonder, I am growing less like myself
Just because of you, my thoughts of you are like air to me
Helpline, pardon me, I have a hundred questions
How do I stop this?
Concrete roads like meadows to me, but it's ok, nobody's teasing me
O and, how do I regain my cool?
Excuse me, it's me again, I unexpectedly saw a rerun
Of that movie, the one you always miss
Don't blame me for not letting others get through to you
Because I need to know that you are mine and mine only
I worry, I wonder, I am turning into someone else
Just because of you, taking your words to be Scriptures
Helpline I love you, one LAST little question,
How do I keep all this sweetness
Concrete roads are meadows, when I stand with you
Oh and...
Okay, that song was playing on Winamp. Now it's another song. Lol. Chinese rap. Ha. I'll put it up next time. Debby laughs at Irvine Guy's (Vaness) rapping.